Trickery is prone to happen, when one is under a veil.
What do I mean, by this?
Sometimes, others are not able to see you yet for who you truly are, because they don't have eyes yet to fully see you--you're behind a veil.
In certain seasons of my life, I've felt the weight of being hidden, not always appreciating the fact that it is truly protection in a variety of ways.
So when others, or a significant other, or a crush does not quite see you for your true beauty and is not able to validate your beauty, your mind and heart begin to second guess themselves.
But am I beautiful?
He doesn't think I am?
But the standard of beauty is this, or that...
You will hear me say this a lot this year. This may be my year of Singleness, but it is NOT my year of Ugliness.
And men, I know that you have a reservoir of sensitivity as well. And I know that a genuine compliment doesn't simply stroke your ego, but encourages you to be a better man.
But let's get real. There's that .1% that would cause me to not want to celebrate someone's else's beauty. And what is that .1%?
It's simple: If I felt as though their beauty and amazingly established identity threatened mine in some way.
How could their beauty threaten me?
Well, if I thought that in some way, this person had an upper hand when it comes to...getting the guy over me...getting the job over me...getting the promotion over me, etc., etc.
And alas, there they are, some of my deep insecurities raw for all to see.
But as I write this, I recognize that this is very much a Spirit of Poverty mentality at work within me.
Because in God's kingdom, there's always more than enough--there's no lack, no deficiency in beauty, and no need to be stingy. In fact, we are called to be radically generous.
Not just with our finances, but with our time, our lives, our love.
So now I realize I need to receive, in a fresh way, the generosity of God's intentions and beauty in my own life. And I must be sold on the fact that I won't be ripped off in anyway.
Perhaps I'm behind a veil.
But even though I may be behind a veil, I cannot and will not succumb to this idea that I'm not valuable, that I'm not beautiful, that I'm not desirable, that I'm not attractive. And the same goes for YOU.
You are more beautiful than you know, more attractive than he gave you credit for, more intelligent than she ever expressed, and more loving than they ever thought you could be.
Validation is such a strong force, especially when you feel as though you crave it. But one (Ehem, meee) must be careful not to put the full weight, perspective, and responsibility of our lives purpose, beauty, and identity upon one single person's response towards us.
This is in no way our year of ugliness.
And in closing....I will not be looking like a hot mess in the streets. Ya heard.
- Luke 6:35-36 (The Message)