Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Love Comes To You.

I'm a few days away from my life completely changing. I leave for Zambia, Africa and have no full idea of what to expect.

But of course, as I prepare to leave, the Lord has had me prepare on a variety of different levels, emotionally and spiritually.

With great power comes great responsibility. Meaning--the ability to make choices that give way to power (and love) being used effectively in any given situation. As a Believer, we have that ability always. "A sound mind"...and the Word, cutting through fact and fiction always exposing the truth.

I've been thinking a lot about Abram and his transition into becoming Abraham and then ultimately his ready heart of sacrifice because he trusted. He trusted when it hurt and didn't make complete sense. That's where I'm at this morning.

I know what He has spoken to my heart. "I am in the season of promise." It holds true weight with me. But again circumstances provoke an opposite and painful reality. And then I remember. His love never fails.

What an incredible statement--to have the phrase "never fails". To really see and understand that begins to melt away fear. I love being honest and vulnerable with God. He's not afraid of me in any sort of way. It's so refreshing.

Something New is really happening here. I am choosing to be awake. I am choosing to feel. I am choosing to believe that He is real. I am choosing to believe that He is working all things together for my good. I am choosing to believe that He knows the true desires of my heart. I am choosing to walk with Him in patience. I am choosing to lay my heart and the one I fell in love with on the altar.

I am choosing.

Thursday, April 24, 2008


It's all about to change. This is the week of the crazy unexpected surprise blessings. In fact, it has already begun. Just let the rain fall on your face. It won't hurt you. No, not at all.

There's something very special about this week and I'm eager to see what it's all about.

Friday, April 18, 2008

We Laugh To Learn

I find that in humor, we can talk more openly about the truth. Sometimes funny people get a bad rap--like we don't get the bigger picture or that nothing means anything to us. (You like how I deemed myself as funny. Haha)

But truly that is not the case. I believe that humor and laughter are gifts straight from the heavenlies. They seem to unlock mystery or give a unique language to our deepest feelings and emotional journeys.

I've been learning a lot this week. Thus, I've been laughing a lot this week. People are beginning to surprise me in the best way. Me, being used to a bit of disappointment and cyclical let downs finds it refreshing when people say the cleverest things that cause your heart to leap and your spirit to say, "Yes". Finally.

And Stacey and Eboni, if you're reading this....You are phenomenal.

I'm feeling more free these days and with that sort of freedom comes introspection about the responsibility such freedom brings. Selah.

"I don't know if I want you to understand me....or Go"--Kenna.

I do want you to understand me. Make me laugh. Let my walls come down and the truth will come in-- exposing who we really are.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Love is Here

When it is now and time stands still how you look so beautiful in this light.
Because I'm so shy but bold in your light how I can see you somehow is just right.
And now I can breathe like newness achieved bowing only to the prospect of you.
Your heart is just right and more or less like the night, exposed for the daylight to be.
I knew you once before this age and He alone can gauge the journey it has taken from there to here.